I really hate for this

May 28, 2001

I really hate for this long weekend to be over, I feel better than I have been and I would hate to screw that up by going back to work . Woke up late, cleaned house and played with my new digital camera. It�s a cheap little thing that doubles as a webcam. The photos are decent and I don�t look good in the [photos](http://www.mkelley.net/photo/Image1.jpg){.liinternal} _sorry I�m a little vain_. Seems to work well and I hope to have more photos on the website.

I�ve been going through probably the roughest part of my whole entire life right now. I have a lot to think about and I�m not able to get through the muck that�s slowing me down. My health is fine, sugar has been good thyroid is still good with medication. Few side effects. I know what I need to do and how to go about doing it, but I�m being effected by�well�others. My options aren�t too clear right now and the vision I count on isn�t too visible. I�m actually at a point in my life where I can�t see the path I�m following. I don�t like that. There are some turnoffs on that trail that I do know about glimpses at a tattered map with a few sketches but no clear path but the main interstate fades out as I walk along. I know I have to trot along, but I�m not sure what town or landmark I might arrive at next. I have a few clues and they�re not the obvious ones and it should make for an interesting read in the next few months. So stay tuned.

My personal philosophy is that our life is made up of peaks and valleys we will have highs and lows. You can�t have good without bad.